Leaving it all behindĀ 

2014 was a tough year for me maintaining the body I worked so hard for. It was a year full of surprises, not the kind you are happy about either. I gained well over 50lbs in just 1.5 years, there is something not normal about that. Granted I did indulge quite a bit and took a break from working out. I don’t feel guilty about it anymore, sometimes a bit of shame when people look at me with their judgmental eyes. I comfort myself in knowing that I needed it mentally, since I burned myself out during the training phase. Still I needed answers…
You can imagine my surprise last year when I was diagnosed with endometriosis and subclinical hypothyroidism within a few months. Endometriosis is an often painful disorder where the tissues that line the uterus grows outside the uterus, it has no way out the body. I had a laparoscopy (minor surgery) that confirmed my diagnosis. Although an estimated 5 million women suffer from it, there is no cure except for a hysterectomy and insufficient research for proper treatment. The thyroid affects metabolism, it regulates how your body uses energy, without enough of this hormone many of the body’s function slow down. Both of these are interrelated in some cases and cause a number of side effects including weight gain. I am still doing my research and looking for natural ways to overcome this, but nonetheless it creates an additional challenge for me to achieve my fitness goals. It also provided a lot of answers for me.
Please make sure to check your health. Visit the doctor do a full panel hormone test (women) blood tests etc. especially if you fluctuate with weight frequently.
I am in a great place (at least for now) because although I’m not at my ideal weight , this is absolutely necessary for my journey. I am ready to leave it all behind, the guilt, anger and shame and move on love my curvas (curves) embrace my shape while working towards what I really want.
In my next few posts I am going to digress back into 2014 to share the emotional struggles and how I as able to overcome them to get here.